i need you to understand
Friday, June 5, 2009
What is this ! honestly.
I got everything, i thought I ever wanted.
but now that I supposedly.. "have" it..
im not content. at all.
if anything. i'm probably more miserable.
When I lost it,
I cried myself to sleep..
promising that whatever happens,
I will get it back.
I did, and im not happy.
not in the very least.
EVERYTHING has changed.
I dont know if I can pull myself to let go .
I wish I was strong enough.
but Ive had it for too long, I can't let go.
took me YEARS to get to this point.
I can't just let go.
but I'm not happy.
yet.. there's an inexplicable force..
that binds me.. forcing me to hold on.
Though sometimes.. i really am not so sure.
but I'd like to think it is.
Those in need to hear
able not bare witness to my words.
and these cries, will be announced in vain.
All I need for you, is to understand.
I cant stand it.
If it's here to stay..
then I'm not.